It’s labor to desire safety while being met with the reality that there is nowhere safe and still believe you have the right to exist and be left alone in peace. Which of the two is mythic and constructed? Both? So how do I push against that?

I’m not trying to humanize & empathize with people who hurt me in order to justify what they’ve done. I’m just better off accepting messiness from the start, because humanity is a mess. If people were inherently evil, it wouldn’t be heartbreaking when they fuck up.